dont make the same mistake please learn from me

by misfits

hi this is my story of my history with totse.com i hope it will teach some of you alternative stoners a lesson. in eigth grade is where it all started thats when i tried my first expirements with alcohol when on a saturday my brother said hey lets get drunk with one of my friends. a few minutes later we ended up consuming many shots of vodka i was able to take alot.then i got drunk a few more times on different occasions such as new year my mom found out about most of them so it became increasing harder to obtain alcohol and one of my friends had a bad expirience and puked so no longer joined me, so i started doing it alone which is the main symptoms of alcoholism. later on it became harder to get drunk. this is where totse.com comes in one day when a girl in my class showed me a paper on nutmeg printed off of totse.com i took the paper eager to find new buzzes i followed all the instructions and obtain several whole nutmeg believe it or not it worked like a charm but tasted nasty in several hours i felt an amazing high i went to two of my friends houses and one of them had to help me cross the street because i was so stoned this is where things started going wrong once i got home my face was pale and my mom noticed something was not alright she thought i had smoked weed but later on i told her to show her i wouldnt do that then we did something that we didnt even need to do she took me to the hospital which i didnt even need to go to i had felt fine until then nothing was wrong with me so i was sent to the er room with all these tubes and wires hooked up to my body they made me drink charcoal which i didnt even need i was completely fine.the ironic thing was that the same day my ex-girlfriend was sent to the hospital for attempted suicide she had OD on about 6 or 7 tylenol or some shit. if she hadnt been talking to this one girl online who she had told what she had did and she call 911 she would of been dead now.so later on time later in the year i had gone back to totse and researched for hours on dxm (dextromethorphan) a ingredient in cough syrup. i looked through my house for a bottle of robotussin i had found on 2/3 empty it didnt really work so a few times later i tried taking whole bottles of the shit. it was a pretty good high i later found out it was the oppisite of speed it slows down your system.after i knew alot about it and tried it a couple times i decided to go 'robotrippin' with a friend we bought 2 bottle of dm robotussin i drank a bottle and a half and he drank about half a bottle. wow i felt good until my brother came home and saw my friend was acting strange he was usually very outgoing but now his system had slowed down a little so my friend told my brother what had happened and he took matters into his own hands and told my mom. then my mom was furious she offered us this stuff to through up i didnt take it but my friend did which made him feel horrible. i couldnt find a drug that worked for me yet so far my brother had ruined dxm whic i liked the search was on i even tried taking 6 benadryls in school once which led to delirium. then it hit me wtf was i wasting all my time on OTC (over the counter drugs) so i tried the obvious solution WEED i first bought a nickle bag then one gram the problem was no one would sell a 15 year old rolling paper.i ended up using regular paper which didnt work too well one of the times i did it i burned my throat horribly and it made me paranoid because it hurt so much i couldnt even swallow food without it hurting i was so high so i was an idiot and told my mom she thought i was drunk before so i would of got away with it if i didnt tell her but i felt bad so i did afterwards i felt magically better and had a amazing high and watched 411 video skatebording magazine that was the first time weed really affected me. i tried once after with some vets later on but thats a different story.my mom took my stash away and once again i was left without anything.i regret telling her. now it was the summer i was doing pretty good making more deposits in the trust bank slowly building up for another purchase so i did something real stupid i overdosed on my ADD medicine which in high doses turns into speed in your body i popped 7 blue pills which equalled 70mg adderall i thought i wouldnt be too bad in the begining it was kind of good but later on i got really burned out and tired. eventhough i was tired i couldnt fall asleep i had to lay in my bed for hours with my eyes closed concentrating on my breathing when i woke up i was pretty sure i wouldnt be busted so i went on the computer then my mom walks in holding a small orange bottle and yelling at me you can probaly guess what happened from there my trust fund was depleted this was probaly going to ruin my summer i thought. my mom said i couldnt go to the reel big fish concert which alot of my friends were going to so now that brings me here as i sit here and type remembering all the shit that happened this year and my summer is probaly messed up.so i wonder did i ever really gain from these experiences. learn a lesson at least you might question well time can only tell as sophmore year comes up.even if one person gets something out of it my experiences wont be pointless. or will it?