Dallas Girl's Story of Heroin Addiction
by Haley
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I just have a few words of what being an addict for almost 7 years has been like for me. Im a 21 yr old girl, I model and am not your "sterotypical" addict, for those still in the mindset that an addict looks a certain way. Us addicts, we hide it well. Well at least I used to...
Its so amazing when you weigh the options of pros and cons in your head- Use and be high and somewhat happy, problems fade--Now the down side of you using could take pages, so why do i always pick the wrong one? I tell people I use with that aren't addicted (YET), how I thought i had it under control. Just weekends right? I never saw it coming.
I was so young first of all, if you would of told me id be a heroin/cocaine addict at 21, i would of laughed. I picked a pretty unlucky time to start using. I live in Plano, TX and at the time I started there was a big rush on black tar and it was unbelivably cheap and a fast high.
Even having 6 friends OD wasn't enough to stop me. I barely graduated high school, and have been in and out of rehabs since I was 17. I have lost cars,apts. Who can add the money I've spent, my parents trust, but most of all 16 friends of mine have died since 96.
I thought methadone was the answer, and it worked so well the first year, then i started using again. Hey, now I can use and i won't have to go through withdrawal! I really believed that would work for me. I also picked up a cocaine addiction working at clubs...
Now, methadone may work wonders on some, but it was such a bad choice for me. I have been off and on it for almost 3 years, and it has been harder to kick than H. I actually got out of rehab 2 days ago, because I couldn't take the withdrawal "cold turkey" and I'm doing everything I can to stay busy. I know I can't have the same friends, but is it me or is it hard to trust everyone's intentions when they're nice?
Guess I've been around the wrong people...
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